{"id":200,"date":"2010-12-19T05:01:00","date_gmt":"2010-12-19T05:01:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jenniferokelly.com\/?p=200"},"modified":"2014-09-30T03:47:28","modified_gmt":"2014-09-30T03:47:28","slug":"mud-straw-sun","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jenniferokelly.com\/?p=200","title":{"rendered":"mud, straw, sun"},"content":{"rendered":"

Adult friendships are built.<\/span>
Adobe houses.  <\/span>
Brick by brick, <\/span>
Organic, imperfect, <\/span>
We are servants of each brick. <\/span>
Scatter the seed and cut the straw.<\/span>
Wait for rain to collect the clay at the outside bend of the creek<\/span>
Form new bricks to repair the eroded corner<\/span>
a neglected spot beneath a window.<\/span>
What do I do now? <\/span>
When disease washes a life away like an out of season storm, <\/span>
I can’t even find the foundation, <\/span>
not even a mess of mud and straw.<\/span>

<\/span>
My brain is silent. Coffee. <\/span>
The thought of it brings the smell.<\/span>
Patrick is downstairs. I wonder if he’s looking for a sign.<\/span>
A trail of code that might comfort.<\/span>
I hear beans tumbling into the grinder.<\/span>

<\/span>
I turn to look at the paintings in my studio <\/span>
and <\/span>I can smell Sui’s Chinese pantry<\/span>
The scent of hot, dry, wooden houses.<\/span>
A particular Texas summer, <\/span>
Clear and bright. Blinding sun. <\/span>
Was it wool? I can’t remember.<\/span>
Flip flops and jeans. <\/span>
The window unit rattles on.<\/span>

<\/span>
The kettle whistle and coffee grinder <\/span>
signal the four minute mark<\/span>
I wonder at the time.<\/span>
December, just north of the snow line.<\/span>
My shoulder is tense from the cold and damp of this day.<\/span>
Patrick brings up coffee.<\/span>
Silent looks at the painting over the drafting table<\/span>
“Don’t Ask Me Stupid F@#&ing Questions” speaks from the wall.<\/span>
Coffee.<\/span>
He drifts back down the hall.<\/span>

<\/span>
Again, <\/span>the dryness of the summer sunroom fills my lungs.<\/span>
I see him cooking in his yellow kitchen, <\/span>
Incandescent, <\/span>glazed in sesame oil,<\/span>
Dusted with five spice powder.<\/span>
“What are you making?” I remember asking, <\/span>
Concerned for the future of the onions and potatoes in my bag.<\/span>
“I don’t know, … weird Chinese food I think.”<\/span>
In one hand, a smoking, hand rolled cigarette punctuates the gesture.<\/span>
Other cigarettes burn like incense in ashtrays scattered about the house<\/span>
He’s talking to me. Asking me questions. <\/span>
Wearing Sui’s sweater, but I don’t know that. <\/span>
She is not here in the dry heat, … <\/span>

<\/span>
I hadn’t known them together really. <\/span>
Just a dinner at a Chinese restaurant.<\/span>
Some surprise that I could use chopsticks.<\/span>
Her suspicion of me and Patrick together…<\/span>
That was in the eyes. No language barrier there.<\/span>
A drive to the airport. <\/span>

<\/span>
I’m back in the doorway to the kitchen.<\/span>
Patrick’s on a volunteer trip.<\/span>
Rebuilding palapas near an archeological site.<\/span>
He said he’d call from San Antonio.<\/span>

<\/span>
Days have passed. <\/span>

<\/span>
There is no message. <\/span>

<\/span>
That sweater barely covers his sides. <\/span>
Steam billows up from the wok.<\/span>
The sweater is taught between the shoulders.<\/span>
It was July. It was hot out and in. <\/span>
Sui was making her way. <\/span>
I marvel at the bags and boxes in the pantry.<\/span>

<\/span>
No Phone Call.<\/span>

<\/span>
Chinese writing and strange illustrations.<\/span>
He has no Idea what this stuff is.<\/span>
Sky rise apartments in Montreal, <\/span>
Government housing projects.<\/span>
An architect on her way to a career in Hong Kong. <\/span>

<\/span>
Biding time, both of us. <\/span>

<\/span><\/p>\n

I hear our Border Collie on the stairs.<\/span><\/div>\n
Outside the window it is snowing.<\/span><\/div>\n
Moving slower than usual,<\/span><\/div>\n
A syncopated, determined gate.<\/span><\/div>\n
I turn to see her navigate the doorway.<\/span><\/div>\n
My slippers are saddled over her shoulders.<\/span><\/div>\n
Brimming with herd dog pride.<\/span><\/div>\n
I realize my feet are still bare from my shower. <\/span><\/div>\n
The lining is warm. <\/span><\/div>\n

<\/span><\/div>\n
Patrick’s phone signals an email’s arrival.<\/span><\/div>\n
It is Sui. I carry the phone into the hall. <\/span><\/div>\n
He is there. We read it together. It says, <\/span><\/div>\n

<\/span><\/div>\n
<\/a><\/div>\n

<\/span><\/div>\n
“Thank you.’<\/span><\/div>\n

<\/span><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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